Diligence

It seems as if my ambition waned considerably this year. I am outlining what I would like to accomplish this next year, and trying to piece together a productive week for myself. I need to have less distractions this year and focus  more on the task I have. The amount of work I plan on completing this year should keep me busy in the studio; away from things that would waste my time. So, I must now apologize to my PS3, friends and sleep:

This year you may feel neglected a little, but I'm not too concerned with that. I'm not intentionally being rude to you, I am just going to put my artwork ahead of you; and specifically friends: You'll know where to find me... and you're welcome to come hang out with me in my studio, I've got no problems with that. You just need to understand that you may have to hold still for a while, and put up with the music.

Sleep, I'll get you back
PS3, I like to relax with you, but our relationship has become more one sided, and I don't like that very much. I know you'll understand... you'll be there when I'm feelin' it.

Onward

fan page

Almost finished setting up the Facebook fanpage.

Also! Web page, well... I guess its not too exciting, but it is on schedule. Deadlines. hmph.

What an exciting Tuesday.

Holy crap... Crap [emphasis]

Fuck! Yes, fuck.

How lazy/unmotivated have I been...? Not as much as it seems. I have been getting some work done, just not an amount that I am satisfied with; Fuck-around time is over.
I have completely delved into my site redesign, and am trying to get everything in order for some serious shit that have stumbled upon the other day. I think, of course, that adding this new idea to my ever expanding idea pool is ultimately going to turn out for the best. I had a solitary focus on separate pieces of the human anatomy, but something is happening.

My music tastes have changed. My food tastes have changed. My attitude in general has changed. Something happened to me over this summer.

I was semi-lazy, and I'm not very happy about that. Fuck, I might have just not had the motivation... but I don't know. I always think of my studio in the best possible light and situation, but I've been frustrated lately when I'm Entering it. (I can't have that) I have to drop my stresses. I've had some great ideas for "happier" works, but it's hard to make the pie smile when all I want to do is make the smile broken.
I updated the photo on my site tonight. I also gave myself a deadline of December for the redesign. I know it's possible, I just need to work on it; and not play so many fucking video games.
Originally I had "I'm so happy." in the circle of the face; but I changed it to the more descriptive, and truthful, ";!"

I have been painting on photographs. FANTASTIC. The results, so far have been outstanding. I am able to manipulate with many different materials, to alter the meaning or subtle direction of the photo.
I also have a couple pictures that Mel took of the boys that I want to paint. [I wonder if that is the proper sentence structure of that sentence? I'm tired and listening to music... maybe I could take out "that"... whatever.]

I hope to get back to my (I think I said 2-3) posts per week. I need to keep myself motivated. 

I have so much to say...
I'm skipping NaNoWriMo; I feel it would just be another way for me to waste some time.
But, I'm gonna be learning Español.

Here's the pic.

Lax

I've been a little lax this past few weeks, on keeping up with the blog posts. I've also been a little lax on getting work done.

Sometimes, there isn't enough time to make enough time.

Juried Show

I met the deadline, and have entered "I First Saw the Dragon" into a juried show.

Now I just have to sit back an wait for a while until I (hopefully) get notice of its acceptance into the show.

...

 ok. I have a commission to work on in the meantime, and a favor for a friend.

done & ready for the show

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only a couple more hours left

only 5 or 6 hours left

2nd layer

underpainting

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gripe

Apparently failing at posting, and failing at production go hand in hand.

All I want to do is get my ass to the studio for and extended amount of time; is this too much to ask? I think not.
I'll crank up the tunes and bust out some of this build-up. I am very Fucking frustrated right now.

I can barely type...

[grumble]

Happy Accidents

I had a happy accident last night.

I'm not sure if I will pursue this type of painting in the future, or not. I took a pic... and probably won't post it, I don't know.

I'm looking forward to getting back to my studio tomorrow. Tonight I had some stuff to take care of.

Oh! And I have my website working again. HOORAY. Updated with a new pic of me while working.

THis LIst

I have this list. And it is ideas that randomly pop up in my brain.
 And there are a lot of thing on this list; But I've noticed, since I
have been doing my experiment, that I will add a lot more at a
time when I've had less booze.

So, that settles that.

So long drunken drunkard... hello semi-responsible/ good work ethic dude.

Somebody had a suspicion that it would turn out like this. That suspicious person was Art Self. He is the mastermind of creativity and hard-work-atude. He is the SOB that gets on my case when I slack. Like a rubber band; If I lax for too long, the rubber band pulls back and keeps pulling until I get my ass to work. Then POW!!! the rubber band releases all of these ideas at once. And I have to try to catch and decipher all ideas, and write/create them instantly. Or lose them forever.

"Oh I'll remember/ I do that tomorrow" That bastard is gone.

oh, and not that it matters, but my website will be down until probably next week. (lame)

All these delays

Sometimes, all I want to do is get work done on my paintings. And sometimes, the Olympics ruin my plans.
Also, I will be conducting an experiment.

When I drink, I think I have less creative ambition. I will be conducting an experiment over the next few months. I want to try and limit myself to one drink or less... and see if I get to my studio more.

I need more time in my studio, since soccer has started and I will be busy 2 nights a week. Granted, these aren't long times of busy, but I wonder how much it will impact my productivity--like the Olympics sure did. It was the "Costas Effect: When a hairpiece looks so bad, it takes away desire for beauty."

And this weekend. I wanted to paint, but felt ill, so I had to delay my studio time until tonight. I neeeeeeeed to get to work tonight. I'm looking forward to getting my studies on my canvas.

Wow wee

This week .... oh man.

I have been distracted by the Olympics. I was working during a few days, but mostly I've been slacking. I have today to work enough. Here's to hoping.

and POW!

I seem to be having issues.

I've got my next painting underway... but decided to revamp it  after abut two-and-a-half hours. I think this is the painting is the one I will submit to the competition this may.

That's it. No real other news.

Study for: I fake better than I fuck

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Self portrait.

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Great Idea

I thought of a great collabroative idea. It would be with 19 other artists. I am getting all the materials organized. I think this would be great. Hopefully, more details soon.

10 min Amy Winehouse

13 min Roy Orbison.

Interesting

John Denver

I sure have been into John Denver music recently. It is better than I remember.
(I sure feel mellow with it)

Face Mesh study -- John Denver

Face Mesh Study -- Weezy

Second Face Mesh study.

Face Mesh #1

This is a study. Expression of humans.

(exciting)

This week can go F**k itself.

Week from hell.

So much for good intentions... all I want to do is spend from the morning until night in my studio; Is that too much to ask? Between doing stuff, and Wii bowling, it's like my time disappears. And I'm not even bowling that much. WTF?!

I've gotta get out there tonight, no matter how late I have to stay up. I need to get cracking on some of the things that are lying dormant.

Also, I need to finish HTML'ing my site.

UNGH!!!!! frustration

Oh yea

Creative explosion.

14 new works. BOOM!!!!

I love the smell of oil pastels on my fingers; it really makes them fing.

Most of what I did tonight is part of a larger group, that I think will be stored away, and printed when I die. Or, all shown at once. It has a little tongue-in-cheek humor. A little ranting. A little idol worship... cuz "...Life ain't nuthin' but a funny funny riddle."

Once I turned on Deutschendorf, I found concentration more difficult. His music is WAAAAAyy different than the direction of the work I was producing. Whatever though, I'm still listening as I write this.

Barrels

Taunting me -- Barrel
Easily frustrating me
Winners are losers.

I need to just kick back for a minute and relax. I am so flooded with images. The organization is exhausting, plus my mind is racing so fast I am unable to sleep, which makes the organization more difficult. Last night I was shooting for a usual six hours of sleep, I think I probably got 4-5. LAME.

Right now it is 11:40p and physically I am spent. Mentally I'm buzzing. THis and That. His and This. Her and There. Here and Me. Why and you. I'm just trying to fully enjoy the first The Used album. It has, since I loaded it on my comp., had the grooves worn flat. [that's right a vinyl reference] This album gets me going. probably not the best choice for relaxation, but .... I've been singing it to myself all day.

I saw a couple of photos today of people who grew up in A-town; people I knew. This made the images for that series explode on my future painting rolodex of a mind. I don't think its a rolodex. maybe a sketchbook would be more appropriate, or Coverflow. (remember when that wasn't in itunes)

I still have to finish my works for this week. I have tomorrow and Friday. All day saturday, Wifey will be busy. I may be able to sneak in a couple of hours in the late afternoon, but I have to go to the art store for some stuff; and this may prove difficult if I try to take the boys. Who knows.

With all the frustration I am having with the barrel, I'm still glad I don't use saws, and doubly-glad that I don't work with wood. But! I do have to hand it to whoever does, and does it well. [especially Bro] I have no idea what the fuck he's telling me about with the "3/8" mumbo-jumbo crawla-ma-jiggy" but I can tell by the pix the artistry. And the passion in explanation.

on a final note for the night. Taco's.

I've got nothing

I've got nothing.

I need to get my ass out to my studio. I am flooding ideas. Time... how I waste you.

Where is my sketchbook. and where is my HTML coding memory.